Quitting

Sometimes I really just feel like giving up.

I really want to be able to accomplish any task that I set my mind to, but there are times where it all seems far too difficult.

I know I have to press on, though; with determination and sheer force of will, I continue.

It's so much more arduous than I ever thought it would be.

I am, of course, talking about learning the names of all the AKB48 girls.

^__^

I have a good solid 30 down, though that does include a couple of SKE crossovers. Seriously though, how am I supposed to remember which one is which when there is a Haruka Katayama and a Haruka Nakagawa? Grr...

Anyhoo, I was finally able to sit down today and complete my 2009 financial record, as well as my preliminary 2010 budget. I've been waiting to see the bottom line before I gave myself the go-ahead to purchase my laptop, which I also did today. I'm glad I waited, too, as Dell just overhauled their available features on their systems. Prices are the same, but some options are different now. The only thing that really changed for the system I was building is that if I got it last week, I would have had a free upgrade to a 9-cell battery, which would have been cool, but isn't a big deal. Also, I was able to get it in black, which is what I wanted, rather than red, which was the only color available last week.

This is her:
Dell Studio 17
Windows 7
Intel Core Duo T6600 (2.2GHz/800MHz FSB/2MB cache)
4GB Shared Dual Channel DDR3 at 1066MHz
17.3" HD+ (1600x900) Bright LED Display
Intel Graphics Media Accelerator 4500MHD
320 GB SATA HDD (7200rpm)
8x Slot Load CD/DVD Burner (Dual Layer DVD+/-R Drive)
Soundblaster X-Fi Hi Def Audio
Intel WiFi Link 5100 802.11n Half Mini-Card
6 Cell Battery
Bluetooth
A cool-looking mouse
3 USB Ports
HDMI

All for a bit more than $1000, so I'm pretty happy. Of course, I won't get to lay eyes on the thing until April, but that'll just be another on my long list of things to look forward to.

Also, once I'm able to, I'm going to renew my Sprint contract, grab a new phone, and get a mobile broadband card. Then I'll be awesome.

Sorry, but I have to mention my latest J-music discovery. I was listening to some AKB48 albums today, which I really haven't done before. I know all the singles, and a few of the album tracks, but there are a lot of songs that I'm not at all familiar with. One such song began to play, and I quite liked it; I found it to be rather catchy. Then the chorus hit, and I did the audial equivalent of a double-take, as I was sure they were saying "Jesus." Turns out the song is actually called "Jesus." Of course, I had to go and look up the translation, and sure enough, it was about Him. It's here: http://stage48.net/studio48/jesus.html I'm not going to even begin to attempt to figure out the hows and whys of them doing that song. I'm just going to be happy that two of my favorite things managed to inexplicably come together ^__^ If the stage performance DVD would hurry up and download, I'll probably stick it on YouTube.

Strange world.